Archive for ‘Family & Motherhood’

February 10, 2011

Two years.

by Hannah

This tiny baby is turning two today.

Like many mothers, I am reflecting on a 40ish hour labor and the unspeakable joy it was to look at his face for the first time. I’m thinking about all that has happened since that night- how I fell in love with all 5 pounds 11 ounces of him, and more and more each day since. How he’s changed, and become this smart, funny, spirited little boy.

More than all the memories, I am thinking about who he is, and who he will be, and how this is only the beginning still. I wonder who he will be and what he will do. I hope that I will guide him well on the way.

Right now, he is affectionate and loving, stubborn and full of spirit. He loves to play outside. He has an insanely long attention span for his age. He likes to color and play instruments. His favorite shows are Caillou and Blue’s Clues. He loves to read with us. He adores his dad, grandpa and uncle (me and his grandma too, but you can tell it’s important to him to be one of the guys). His vocabulary grows every day, and he points out every car and airplane. He notices tiny details and points them out- like a crescent moon out in the middle of the day, or a bird high up in the sky. He amazes me.

Happy birthday, Seth my love.

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January 14, 2011

his world.

by Hannah


he reaches up to give me the little flower he just picked- only the bud, plucked from a weed that made its way through a crack in our patio cement. i really should get out there and pull all the weeds around the edges- it looks messy.



“here, mama.” he says as he hands me the flower, smiling. he does this over and over, so proud and purposeful. if i am slow to reach for it he says sternly, “mama!”. i tell him thank you, and that i love him, and that they are so beautiful. i give him a hug, and smell his hair, still baby-soft and curly at the ends. he lays a little kiss on my cheek, and then pushes me away to trot off, seeking his next adventure.



our days are roller caster rides of the sweetest moments, the fits of giggles, and the passionate tantrums and tireless testing of boundaries.
i try to steal a few minutes, an hour, a moment- here and there throughout the day to keep up with my to-do list. it is a delicate balance- motherhood, work. he is more important, every time. yet in a certain moment sometimes work is more immediate and pressing. it is hard not to feel guilty for that.
he sees birds in the park and makes his signature bird sound {it sounds just like a seagull- we were at the beach the first time he did it.}
he chases them and they scatter into the air. he laughs, and does it again. his joy is pure and real, and contagious.
i watch him, sleeping, and he looks the same as i remember him looking when he was tiny. he’s on his back, arms and legs spread out. i think about how if i try to sleep on my back, i startle. he is so full of peace and innocence that i practically tear up. once again i see that it is all going so fast, just like people so love to tell me it will.
but in this moment his world and mine are still intertwined to the core. and i let his contentment wash over me and every worry die away for a while.
in his world there is only this moment.
a gift, and a lesson.


January 12, 2011

Final Images of 2010

by Hannah

I do believe this is that last post of 2010 photos.

Christmas Day- we visited Manny’s dad at work at the fire station. It was Seth’s first time seeing it, and he was thrilled of course.

Seth’s first tricycle ride:

Me and my little sister, Eva. I love this kid so much. She’s visiting me this coming weekend- can’t wait :)

{p.s.- holding a D700 with one hand, getting it to focus and take a picture with both faces in it, and having a decent expression on your face while doing so- is an art form all it’s own. ;)}

And there you have it.

xoxo,

h

December 26, 2010

And all was quiet…

by Hannah

My first Christmas with a child, rather than a baby.
Joy, wonder, amazement, sensory overload, meltdowns, and now- peaceful sleep. He made the holiday magical for all of us again.

Yesterday my husband and his dad both worked. I am thankful for our firefighters and dispatchers, who work to keep us safe, 365 days a year. So today was “our” Christmas, and it was all wrapping paper and sweets and delicious food and the awesome craziness of family gatherings. I love every minute of it. Santa spoiled all of us this year, especially my son :)

I hope your holiday was wonderful, too. I was just looking over my calendar and to see only six days left in 2010 was a bit of a shock, though of course I knew that already. This year has gone by faster than any previous year of my life. It scares me- does that rate keep increasing as we get older? Time, please slow down. please.

I am filled with so much gratefulness tonight that I could practically burst.
For my son.
For my family.
For another year.
And yes, for my new printer, and film for my Polaroid, a lovely necklace, a French press for my coffee, Toms shoes, and some much-wanted books.

I am so very blessed.

December 25, 2010

Holiday wishes…

by Hannah

…from our family to yours.

I hope that your Christmas day is full of love and wonder!

xoxo,

h.

{The photos above with me in them were taken by my friend April. Others by me.}

December 22, 2010

Festivities…

by Hannah

Decorating our tree. Manny’s parents came over to help.

Manny shot these:

And the next week, we went with them to get theirs and we all decorated it together.

{It was pretty cold (for Florida) for a while, with lows in the 30’s. Now it’s back to the 60’s/70’s, which is perfect for me.}

Here’s the whole group- shot using the timer and a makeshift tripod:

It is so, so great that we are all together, home, and healthy this year. I am so thankful. Last Christmas we visited Jackie in the hospital, as she was just finishing up her first round of chemo. What a huge difference a year makes!

And… a sneak peek at gifts I’ve been making. I made these felted hot mats for my grandma, who doesn’t read my blog, so it’s safe to post here :)
I’m kind of in love with felting things lately. The one on the left came out a little funny, since I had to kind of make them up as I went. I really like how they came out though, and might be making a set for our table.

And tonight, we went (very spontaneously) to the zoo where they’re doing “Holiday Nights” this week. It was so much fun, and Seth got to meet “Santa” for the first time. Thankfully, he didn’t ask for anything he’s not getting :-P They had LED Christmas lights everywhere. Our zoo is very conservation-minded. We have a membership and we just love going and walking around as a family.

Tomorrow, Seth and I are heading to visit my family until the afternoon of Christmas Eve. Manny works Thursday, Friday, and Saturday nights, so our Christmas celebrating will be kind of odd and spread out. I’m really looking forward to it though, and I’m busy finishing up my last few handmade gifts! It looks like I’ll be sending out packages the Monday after- but better a little late then never, right?

I’ll be back in the morning with a yummy recipe!

December 15, 2010

Reverb 10- 5 Minutes

by Hannah

Imagine you will completely lose your memory of 2010 in five minutes. Set an alarm for five minutes and capture the things you most want to remember about 2010.

First of all, maybe there are a lot of things about 2010 I wouldn’t mind forgetting. But really, those are probably the things that taught me the most. This was a certainly a year of learning, and growing, in so many areas.

I want to remember every sweet and awesome moment with my family this year. In January Seth was still a baby, and now he is a little boy full of wonder. He started walking and talking this year, and got 13 teeth- maybe more by the time the year is actually over.

I want to remember that I worked so very hard this year, without always seeing it pay off. I never want to forget that any where I get to in the future, started with lots of late nights and tears and feeling defeated for a while.

I want to remember that this year, my family and I worked through tough times, and became stronger. We made a house a home. We grew up a lot.

And boy, that five minutes went so fast. I am so glad that I took so many pictures..

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December 15, 2010

Reverb 10- Appreciate

by Hannah

What’s the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it?

Family.

This year, over and over, I was reminded how incredibly blessed I am because of my family.

That my husband and I are more in love than ever after 3 years of marriage.

That our son is so amazing and healthy and that we get the awesome privilege of raising him.

That I have in-laws who are so loving and caring and generous, and live five minutes away from us.

I cannot even express how grateful I am that my husband’s parents are home for Christmas this year- that his mom is getting her health back. That is a thousand prayers answered.

That I can drive less than hour to see my mom, dad, sister, and my grandmother- who is still so full of life and wit at 86 years old.

That we all get along almost all the time, and all love being together.

And that is how I show my appreciation- time spent together. Meals at a family table, movie nights and zoo visits and beach days, s’mores, bowling, and just sitting in the back yard. I love those times.

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December 5, 2010

Reverb 10- Wonder

by Hannah

{Backtracking. Day 4 prompt:}

How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year?

My answer to this question is really about what brought a sense of wonder to my life this year. I didn’t need to cultivate it- the wonder was a gift given to me. This is probably good, because with the insane busyness of 2010, I’m not so sure I would have taken the time to cultivate wonder if it had been up to me.

The answer:

Yes, it might be kind of a predictable answer, but my son brought the wonder to my life this year, on a daily basis.

He is changing and learning every single day, and he never ceases to amaze me. The way he experiences the world with fresh eyes, with openness, and wonder… it rubs off.

This one small person has impacted and enriched my life in unspeakable, wonderful ways. I love him more than I can express and I am so thankful for the wonder he infuses my world with.

December 3, 2010

Today…

by Hannah

Enjoying this, along with my nice warm mug of coffee:

Thinking about Christmas, and the gifts I want to make for my loved ones. I’m crocheting again and loving the therapeutic repetition of it.

Writing about simplicity over at The Creative Mama.

Editing recent work, such as this family lifestyle session (and more coming soon!)

Getting ready to shoot a fundraiser for the local Sierra Club tomorrow.

Looking forward to buying and trimming our Christmas tree this weekend.

Getting off my computer and taking this guy out to the park:

{Not the greatest shot technically, but isn’t he just hilarious? This was the first time he said “cheese” and posed for me, and I don’t know where he got it from- goodness knows I never tell anyone to say cheese!}

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