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December 20, 2010

11 Things

by Hannah

I know. I am all out of order and behind with reverb10. I thought life was about to slow down a little, but it has been just as crazy as ever, only for different reasons. So I’m just going to try to answer some of my favorite prompts here and there, and I’m also hoping to find some time and inspiration soon to just write and photograph for myself- for the sake of creating. I long for that and I feel I really need it so that stress will not swallow me whole.

So on t the prompt…

What are 11 things your life doesn’t need in 2011? How will you go about eliminating them? How will getting rid of these 11 things change your life?

1. Guilt
seriously, who needs it, right?

2. Self-criticism
definitely something I don’t need, and usually have too much of

3. Worry over things I cannot control

4. Clutter
in my home, my computer, my mind… I want to be rid of thing I don’t need, that are just taking up space and looking messy

5. Tons of sugar
oh yes, it tastes good. but it makes me feel like total crap. I know this, and yet I still allow the stuff to be a regular part of my life. I really want to kick it out and feel good again.

6. Being “too busy” for things that are important to me
things like quality family time, cooking healthy meals, being creative, connecting with friends, and reading/learning. it’s all about prioritizing and actively managing my time.

7. Headaches
I’m so tired of being plagued by this constantly. definitely don’t need them.

8. Bad haircuts
I heard somewhere that if your hairstyle is bad, don’t even bother putting effort into the rest of your outfit.

9. Going too long without a date night
definitely something my marriage doesn’t need.

10. Going to long without visiting my family
I miss my mom. :)

11. Stressing over the small stuff.
I need more “chill-ness” in my life :)

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December 15, 2010

Reverb 10- 5 Minutes

by Hannah

Imagine you will completely lose your memory of 2010 in five minutes. Set an alarm for five minutes and capture the things you most want to remember about 2010.

First of all, maybe there are a lot of things about 2010 I wouldn’t mind forgetting. But really, those are probably the things that taught me the most. This was a certainly a year of learning, and growing, in so many areas.

I want to remember every sweet and awesome moment with my family this year. In January Seth was still a baby, and now he is a little boy full of wonder. He started walking and talking this year, and got 13 teeth- maybe more by the time the year is actually over.

I want to remember that I worked so very hard this year, without always seeing it pay off. I never want to forget that any where I get to in the future, started with lots of late nights and tears and feeling defeated for a while.

I want to remember that this year, my family and I worked through tough times, and became stronger. We made a house a home. We grew up a lot.

And boy, that five minutes went so fast. I am so glad that I took so many pictures..

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December 15, 2010

Reverb 10- Appreciate

by Hannah

What’s the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it?

Family.

This year, over and over, I was reminded how incredibly blessed I am because of my family.

That my husband and I are more in love than ever after 3 years of marriage.

That our son is so amazing and healthy and that we get the awesome privilege of raising him.

That I have in-laws who are so loving and caring and generous, and live five minutes away from us.

I cannot even express how grateful I am that my husband’s parents are home for Christmas this year- that his mom is getting her health back. That is a thousand prayers answered.

That I can drive less than hour to see my mom, dad, sister, and my grandmother- who is still so full of life and wit at 86 years old.

That we all get along almost all the time, and all love being together.

And that is how I show my appreciation- time spent together. Meals at a family table, movie nights and zoo visits and beach days, s’mores, bowling, and just sitting in the back yard. I love those times.

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December 9, 2010

Reverb 10- Make

by Hannah

What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it?

The last thing I made…

well actually the last couple of things:

Ornaments!

For the bird, I drew the shapes I needed on paper first, traced them onto the felt, and cut them out. I stuffed with fiber fill and stitched around it up with embroidery floss.

The glass ball idea was from here {thanks, Jami!}. I used an ornament we had already, and used a silver paint pen to draw the design.

I want to do a few more of each of these in the coming weeks- they’re easy and the birds especially would be cute additions to holiday gifts!

I have several Christmas gifts on my “to-make” list. I’m planning on doing some crocheting, and some baking. Finding time for those things is rare these days, but I have a break coming up and I intend to put it to good use.

December 8, 2010

Reverb 10- Beautifully Different

by Hannah

Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different – you’ll find they’re what make you beautiful.

When I saw this prompt early this morning, I instantly loved and hated it. I knew I needed to write it, but I haven’t particularly been looking forward to it today because… well, I am still learning to be able to see my own beauty, and I also feel very self-conscious about the line between self-confidence and boasting. I have always tended to err on the side of silence just to be safe.

I could go off about how frustrated I am that our society skews how women perceive themselves, and how they think about beauty, and how important it is to embrace the beauty in yourself… but I would be avoiding if I did that.

I am different.
I am different because I am the youngest. I always have been. I started college when I was 14, moved away from home at 16 to transfer to a university. I graduated when I was 19 and entered the workforce, also getting married just before turning 20. I started my own business when I was 20. I became a mother when I was 21. In every social circle I have been part of since I was a teenager, I have been the youngest. I sometimes hate even telling anyone this because I don’t feel that it is particularly brag-worthy. I think it was more a matter of working the system than of extreme intelligence.
I am different because I understand. I understand pain and heartbreak, depression, abandonment and the deepest hurts. I have experienced them. I carry the scars. And I hope that in my understanding can help others, that maybe these experiences were not in vain.
I am different because I see beauty in everything. My optimism has survived all I have encountered in my life. Or maybe, it is that I choose to seek the good, the light, in people. I believe that seeing the beauty in this world, and sharing it with others, is my gift and my calling. I believe that it can change things.
I am different because I am introspective. I take a while to get comfortable with new people, and am frequently awkward in the meantime. I think more clearly than I speak. I say and do awkward things when I’m nervous. I laugh too much, especially when I’m even the least bit nervous. Yes, I am introspective. Crowds wear me out, and I need alone time to recover from them. I need self-reflection time in order to feel balanced. But I love people. I am thankful for my friends and my family, more than I can even say, and I care about them deeply.

Telling you I’m different is easy. I have always felt different from everyone else. I have been acutely aware of my differentness for as long as I can remember. As a child I never felt like “one of” the other kids. My physical appearance, my shyness, not being able to afford cool clothes, not being allowed to do some things they did… I could write a book about about my differentness.

The harder thing for me to say to you is the one I need to accept. It is the thing that is most important for me to voice.

I am beautiful.

My unconventional timing in life has allowed me to be where I am today, right now- which is exactly where I am supposed to be. That is beautiful.
The negative things I’ve experienced- the hurt, the scars- have shaped who I am. They have made me stronger. I can relate to a lot of different people, from many different walks of life. I feel compassion toward people who are suffering in a deeper way than I would if I’d never experienced these things. And that is beautiful too.
My introspected nature is beautiful, because it causes me to think and observe more.
My awkwardness is even beautiful- because it keeps me humble, and it puts people at ease. It can even have a comedic quality at times, and (thank goodness) my husband finds it sexy. :)

And it is true after all– that which makes me different, is also what makes me beautiful.

December 7, 2010

Reverb 10- Community

by Hannah

Where have you discovered community, online or otherwise, in 2010? What community would you like to join, create or more deeply connect with in 2011?

Ahh, the C word… lol.

Actually, this prompt is another hard one for me to answer, because community is something I have longed for over the last few years. I feel that I am on the fringes of a couple, but never really a part of them in a deep way.
Some of it is that I allow myself to be busy and distracted, and you must invest in communities in order to really belong to them.
But the primary reason is that I am a little shy. Even when I find a community I would like to be part of, it takes me a long time to get to know the people in it and really feel a part of it. I am much more a “one-on-one” person than a group person. Not that I don’t enjoy groups- I just don’t often speak up when I’m in them. It doesn’t come naturally to me. I think sometimes people think that I’m distancing myself on purpose, and mistake my shyness for lack of interest, which is totally not the case at all.

I am so blessed to have found a local group of female pro photographers this year. I’ve been to only a few meetings so far, but it seems like an amazing group and I am really hoping to get to know these talented women in the coming year.
I have enjoyed being part of an online community of photographers at The Bloom Forum. I’m still new there as well, but it s great place to talk to others who are passionate about photography.

One form of community that I need- that my family needs- is other young couples and families to spend time with together. My husband and I have very few friends who are married and/or parents, and I know that we would benefit significantly from friendships with people who are at similar places in their lives as we are. Among other moms I am usually the youngest by a decade or more, and while those friendships can be awesome, there is just a different dynamic.

I want to be more intentional about investing in the friendships I already have in the coming year. I have allowed life to get in the way too often, but being busy is a really terrible excuse. I need to press against my introverted nature a bit and pick up the phone, schedule a coffee date or invite a friend over for lunch. Because despite my tendency toward introverted-ness, I get depressed when I am alone too much. It isn’t healthy.

So this post about community became about friendships… That actually tells you something about me. I don’t do well with lots of surface-y relationships. I’m more of a true friendship kind of person, so just being “part of something” in a broad sense isn’t enough for me- I need connections to be made in order to feel a real sense of belonging. I guess it’s sort of a blessing and a curse :)

December 5, 2010

Reverb 10- Wonder

by Hannah

{Backtracking. Day 4 prompt:}

How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year?

My answer to this question is really about what brought a sense of wonder to my life this year. I didn’t need to cultivate it- the wonder was a gift given to me. This is probably good, because with the insane busyness of 2010, I’m not so sure I would have taken the time to cultivate wonder if it had been up to me.

The answer:

Yes, it might be kind of a predictable answer, but my son brought the wonder to my life this year, on a daily basis.

He is changing and learning every single day, and he never ceases to amaze me. The way he experiences the world with fresh eyes, with openness, and wonder… it rubs off.

This one small person has impacted and enriched my life in unspeakable, wonderful ways. I love him more than I can express and I am so thankful for the wonder he infuses my world with.

December 5, 2010

Reverb 10- Let Go

by Hannah

What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?

Earlier this year, I let go of trying to do everything. Specifically, I closed my Etsy shop where I sold jewelry and crocheted items, saving those crafts for personal fulfillment only. I realized that it was taking time from my business and my family. No one can do it all, and prioritizing and letting go of things is so important to living a balanced life.

Until that point, I was giving a little time to my photography and a little to making things for my shop, but neither were anywhere near thriving. It became obvious that I would have to choose in order to be successful at one. Of course there wasn’t even a decision to make there. Photography is my career- Etsy was fun, but not selling things doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy making things in my free time- which I still do every now and then. Actually, I even made a necklace for a shoot a couple months ago!

Letting go, in general, is usually difficult, but almost always brings freedom. New doors open. Choosing to focus my energies on my business has payed off significantly this year, and I finally feel I am on the right track.

December 4, 2010

Reverb 10 – One Word

by Hannah

I noticed a few other bloggers talking about Reverb 10 recently, but I didn’t actually visit the website and see what it was about until this morning. And I immediately wanted to do it.

Reverb 10 is a month of creative prompts to reflect on the past year, and manifest the year to come. Even more, it is a creative community. So far there have been four great prompts by some very talented authors. I could try to explain more, but go see for yourself. It is going to be the perfect way to reflect on 2010 and prepare for 2011.

Since I missed the first three days, I want to go ahead and do the first prompt today, because there seems to be no better place to start. I might double up over the next few days in order to catch up.

One Word. Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?

After reading this prompt, I sat staring at my screen for a few moments, thinking. Words floated around in my head, and while all of them certainly applied to this year, none of them were quite right. Then it came to me.

Growth.

No other word so fully encapsulates what 2010 has been for me. It has been a year of growth for me in so many areas. Growth for my marriage. Growth as a mother. Growth as a person. Growth for my business and my art.

I feel like I have changed so much, in so many areas, since the beginning of this year.
A funny thing about growth, is that the more of it you do, the more you realize how far you still have to go. I still feel so young, so inexperienced. I do not feel that I “have it all together”. The growing never ends. Each day is an opportunity to learn, and therefore to grow. This truth has been at the forefront of this year for me.

I read in an interview with a very accomplished photographer- I wish I could remember who it was- who said that the day he stops learning about photography and growing in the craft, is that day he puts his camera down for good. That really struck me- not only for photography, but for all of life. I believe that we are designed to continuously move forward, and stagnancy in our lives is like poison.

I am so thankful for the growth I have experienced this year, and for the growth that will happen in the coming year.

Sunflower

One year from now, I hope that I can look back and describe 2011 with the word thrive.
I envision a year of seeing the results of the growth I have experienced-  making all the growing pains worth it. I dream of seeing my family, my marriage, my soul, mind, body, and my business, all thriving in the coming year and years.
I think that a key to this is action. The bulk of learning, talking, and planning, have happened this year. More doing needs to happen now, in every area of my life.

Yes, let the doing begin. I want to stop thinking about how to fly, and just fly.

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